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Damned If I Do, Damned If I Don't
 
So many things
Running around my head
Damned if I do 
Damned if I don't
 
Frustrated I am
Pulling my hair out
Damned if I do 
Damned if I don't
 
Your words placate
Just laughing about
Damned if I do 
Damned if I don't
 
You're making me feel small
As you tower about
Damned if I do 
Damned if I don't
 
It's not about you
My moment of doubt
Damned if I do 
Damned if I don't
 
It's all my own
Making me shout
Damned if I do 
Damned if I don't
 
Get it together
Or run away
Damned if I do 
Damned if I don't
 
Make a choice
Make up my mind
Damned if I do 
Damned if I don't
 
Since it's all about you
Tell me what i'm to do
Damned if I do 
Damned if I don't
 
Show me what to feel
Tell me when I'm all better
Damned if I do 
Damned if I don't

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
July, 2008

People
 
People come and go
and yet here you still are

People come in and out
and yet you stay the course

People love and let go
and yet your love never fades

People hurt and use
and yet you never take advantage

People run away
and yet you choose to stay

People wonder if their the one
and baby I know you're my one

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
July, 2008
I

I truly loved you the day I met you
I love you more today than yesterday
I'm sure I'll love you more tomorrow than today
I could never love you as much in this life as I did the last
I'll love you so much more in our next life then this one
I shall never love another as I truly love you
I would never think another could love me as much too
I pray for a life ever after with you my soul mate
I know you will love me until the end of us
I know i'll love you beyond my last breath 
I believe we'll love one another even beyond death

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
July, 2008


Bleep
 
I was gone a few short nights
and was surprised to come home
to a very sweet charming sight
you had set up and perpared just for me

beautiful red roses you went out and bought
Chilled sweet red wine oh what a delight
strawberries covered in all sorts of treats
you took the time to order for me

lots of candles were lit all around
it truly was a very wonderful night 
a card that read words of your love
how special you always make me feel

how can I explain how much it means
when I feel hurt , mad and upset
that my buttons you refuse to push
not wanting to try and bring on a huge fight 

you do the one thing no one has bothered to try
you stay patient and listing to me thinking im right
you never get mad or even yelled back
you truly do love me this I now can honestly see

I need to catch up with how you think about me
I understand that you do believe we're a we
I'm starting to believe that maybe your right
that you are the one made just for me

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Time
 
one day at a time is what they say
is all it'll take to make it go away
I think they are wrong because
a little of the pain is camping 
in my heart for another day
 
hurt me you did by pushing me away
lets just not and say we did
it's been many months now and
there's still no reprieve in sight
see it's truly going to take some fight
 
a lot more than just a simple day 
to make it all just go away
I know I'm slowly growing stronger
as each day turns into the next
it's just going to take a little bit more time
 
maybe even a whole hell of a bunch 
but the day is quickly growing close
when without you my heart will say
I'm truly happy that I knew you
But now it's time for me to go away

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
My Hunter
 
Normal by day
ghost hunter by night
you're very special to me
I think you're out of sight
 
want to have a beer with me
just to pass the day away
if so when do you think 
you'll be getting down my way
 
friends we've been
for a very long time
never a need or desire to 
ever have a fight
 
military trained
hard worker that you are
life's little throw away
please baby stay in the game
 
remember I know you
at least what you've told
open your gate, let down your guard
learn how to trust once and for all
 
you trusted in you're heart
enough that you tattooed me 
on the inside of your arm 
it must be true on your part
 
you're my favorite fan
crazy as you can be
I love how very sweet you are
your my very special friend

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Have you met Tonya? 
 
Have you met Tonya?
I heard her exclaim 
Why the hell would I risk 
Making HER go away
 
They'd be no strings attached
Not even a word to utter
A fun hit it then quit it 
my woman was offered
 
An trist truly so simple
Why not just lie to your woman
and come to my place to play
would you agree to the terms and partake
 
Nope, not for me she said without hesitation
Not even a second thought
About taking the woman's presentation
I'm blissfully happy with what I already got
  
Without a doubt in my head or heart 
I truly love my baby she's all I want
I'd never cheat or swing even after being offered 
An anonymous fun time to play FLING
  
No way in hell could someone make me stray
I'm not a fool, I won't even walk away
Nothing or no one is worth losing my baby 
Not even a cheap thrill for just one night
 
My heart now knows her heart is true
As I heard her tell that bitch again
When she didn't even know I was around
"Have you met Tonya"?

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008

Never met 
 
We talk on the computer
and we talk on the phone
we talking through texts
and through emails and such

I've known you for a while
even though we've never met
never seen each other 
at least not face to face
 
it doesn't seem to matter
our heart knows the rest
your way up north
and me down south

why not meet in the middle
to see what comes about
it might just surprise us
to learn whats its all about

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Without you
 
I don't ever want to be without you
My heart would hurt too much
 
I don't ever want to be without you
My body would ache from lack of your touch
 
I don't ever want to be without you
My breathing would come in short bursts
 
I don't ever want to be without you
My eyes would swell with tears of pain
 
I don't ever want to be without you
My head wouldn't know how to trust
 
I don't ever want to be without you
My everything would be your must
 
I don't ever want to be without you
My being would long for your love

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008

My Poems
 
You read what I write
thinking it's meant for you
 
These words that I speak
couldn't be further than your truth
 
Thoughts that come out
are meant for no certain one
 
They are just merely some
of my feelings running about
 
Really truly they are talking about another 
nope darlin' sorry they are not for you
 
My poems are just that
they are truly nothing new
 
They are just words of the past
nothing more than one, two
 
Don't take them to heart
just take them with glee
 
Knowing they are not yours
they belong to someone like me

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
It's not 
all about you

Stop reading my poems
Stop looking at my sight
All it's really doing
Is bringing on fights
You get so mad
You get so angry
You act so hurt
You act so blue
They have nothing
To do with you

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
This one IS for you
 
Read each word of this poem
embrace it and take it to heart
 
I want you to know darling
know without a doubt
 
I want to make it clear to you
so listen to my words
 
Because my darlin' 
this poem is just for you
 
You've been in my heart
forever it seems
 
In this life 
as well as the last
 
No one could ever 
take your place 
 
Not in my mind
and especially not in my heart
 
Darlin', darlin', darlin'
I truly do love you

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Can You
 
Can you give me a minute
Can you take the time
Can you truly love me
Can you try to give a damn
 
Can you give it some thought
Can you not read into it
Can you wait for a moment
Can you try to give a damn
 
Can you just love me
Can you just try
Can you just hold me
Can you try to give a damn

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
 
?

Today
Tomorrow
Yesterday
Past 
Future 
Present
Baby
I
Truly
Love
You

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Simplifies
 
 
Your love simplifies me and makes me whole
When I'm with you I think of no other
When I'm not with you I can only think of you
You truly make me so very happy babe
I do know I am beyond blessed
 
Your love simplifies me and makes me complete
When I'm with you I let my heart sing
When I'm not with you I sing only to you
You truly make me so very happy babe
 I do know I am beyond in love
 
Your love simplifies me and makes me unique
When I'm with you I smile from within
When I'm not with you I smile at thoughts of you
You truly make me so very happy babe
 I do know I am beyond happy
 
Your love simplifies me and makes me peaceful
When I'm with you I feel warm and cozy
When I'm not with you I can't wait to be
You truly make me so very happy babe
I do know I am beyond fortunate
 
Your love simplifies me and makes me satisfied
When I'm with you I so love life
When I'm not with you I love thinking of life with you
You truly make me so very happy babe
I do know I am beyond loved

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008


I Do Miss You
 
Do I miss you
Hell yes
Every minute we're apart 
 
Do I want you 
Hell yes
Every second of every day
 
Do I need you 
Hell yes
Every breath that i take
 
Do I love you
Hell yes
Every moment on this earth

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008

Sometimes
 
Sometimes....
Sometimes....
Sometimes.... 
Sometimes I just want to be touched
Sometimes I need to be adored
Sometimes I just want to be pampered
Sometimes I need to be held
Sometime I just want to be kissed
Sometimes I need to be embraced
Sometimes I just want to be smothered
Sometimes I need to be loved
Sometimes I just want to be needed
Sometimes I need to be the center
Sometimes I just want to be invisible
Sometimes I need to be with others
Sometimes I just want to be alone
Sometimes I need to be dressed
Sometimes I just want to be naked
Sometimes I need to be together
Sometimes I just want to be bothered
Sometimes I need to be married
Sometimes I just want to be single
Sometimes I need to be you
Sometimes I just want to be me
Sometimes....
Sometimes....
Sometimes....

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008

So tell me 
 
What's so wrong with me
I often thought it must be my size
Maybe even my looks could be to blame
But those days are long gone
And yet I'm still asking
What's so wrong with me
 
What's so wrong with me
I'm so much smaller now
And even prettier I tend to think
These days I'm so totally different
And yet I'm still asking
What's so wrong with me
 
What's so wrong with me
I want to be held and touched
I need to be wanted and loved
 I feel as if I'm asking way too much
And yet I'm still asking
What's so wrong with me
 
What's so wrong with me
You say that you want me
That you're just afraid of my rejection
But I feel its just your excuse
And yet I'm still asking
What's so wrong with me
  
What's so wrong with me
I laid next to you at night hoping for a touch
A touch that seldom ever came
Knowing to get my hopes up I'd just fall
And yet I'm still asking
What's so wrong with me
 
What's so wrong with me
Why do I have to always ask why
Why can't you need me as I do you
What do I do now, knowing it's just as it is 
And yet I'm still asking
What's so wrong with me

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
How could I?
 
How could I want you
in every single way?
 
How could I kiss you
the very first night?
 
How could I keep you
from day one?
 
How could I adore you
every minute of my life?
 
How could I love you
and make you my wife?

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Not As It Seems
 
People looking into my life
Always try to say it's my fault
That others pay me attention
And treat me like a delicate flower
 
They think I love all the hype
They couldn't be further from right
They always jump to believe
I must be causing all this steam
 
No one knows anything about me
No one ever takes the time
Else they would surely see
That I'm nothing more than just me
 
True, sometimes the attention is great
Other times I'd rather crawl into a hole
Inside I'm still simply a little country girl
Needing acceptance and lots of love to hold
 
Let me decide when I want the flattery
 In the mean time don't think me elated
just because you took the time to speak
ill choose the ones id like to seek

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Tops
 
Tops in my world
Tops in my life
 
Tops to my bottom
Tops to as my wife
 
Tops in my heart
Tops in my world
 
Tops for my universe
Tops in my heart
 
Tops in my forever
Tops with me

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008

Passing Time
 
Minute by minute
Day by day
Loving you fiercely
I'll never run away
 
Moment by moment
Month by month
Keeping us together
It's going to take work
 
Second by second
Year by year
Come and get me baby
And make me yours

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008

I Love

I love how you look at me
I love what we had
 
I love how you touch me
I love what we had
 
I love when you smile at me
I love what we had
 
I love how you caress me
I love what we had
 
I love when you hold me
I love what we had
 
I love when you kiss me
I love what we had
 
I love when you love me
I love what we had
 
I love my every minute with you
I love what we STILL have

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Time

If tomorrow was yesterday
Would I be in your arms today
 
If yesterday was today
Would you want me to stay
 
If today was tomorrow 
Would you really be true
 
If yesterday was tomorrow
Would you go beyond the blue
 
If I gave you all my days
 Would our love hold fast and true

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008

Taken Crae of

You asked me if I wanted to be a kept woman
The answer to this question is nope 
No matter how it might seem
 
There is just no way that I can let others 
That are counting on me down
So without all the stuff I'd rather go
 
Does this decision of mine mean 
That I've got to lose the one that I love
Only this answer will you know
 
I'll help you out wherever I can
But where it involves money 
I'm afraid you're all on your own
 
I'm still the same charming woman
Just broke as you know
Love me for who I am or just let me go

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Only

You can't have me
Unless you truly want me
 
You got to take me as I am
Unless you want to let me go
 
You can't really want me
Unless you take a chance
 
I can't be no one else
Only the one that loves you

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008

Me
 
Make me a promise
That if I'm the one
 
You will do all that you can
To never make me run
 
Give me an honest chance
And see how true I can be
 
Never try to use or play me
Or I'll soon go away from you
 
Never tear out my heart
Else a true fool you'll be

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Passing Time
 
Minute by minute
Day by day
Loving you fiercely
I'll never run away
 
Moment by moment
Month by month
Keeping us together
Is going to take work
 
Second by second
Year by year
Come and get me baby
Make me hear

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008

How

How will I know 
If you're my true heart
If I never give you
A chance to show me
 
How will I know 
If I could truly love you so
If I never give you 
A chance to show me
 
How will I know 
How happy I could be
If I never give you
A chance to show me
 
How will I know 
Moving on is bad
If I never give you
A chance to show me
 
How will I know 
You're my real soul mate
If I never give you
A chance to show me
 
How will I know 
Your love for me is true
If I never give you
A chance to show me 
 
How will I know 
That you're honestly real
If I never give you
A chance to show me
 
How will I know 
How much love I could feel
If I never give you
A chance to show me
 
How will I know 
If you're the one for me
If I never give you
A chance to show me

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
A Clue

Stop and think
Before you go on
Take the time to figure it out 
 
You know I'm special
You say you want me
You just don't have a clue how
 
I'm nobody special
Just singularly me
Rolling through life being happy
 
Life has been good
No way it could have been better
Nothing's going to bring me down
 
Set backs may come
They are only moments of pause
Teaching us how special we truly are
 
I'll stop and think
Before I go on
Taking the time to figure it out
 
I know you're special
I know I want us
I just don't have a clue how
 
If it's right it will happen
If it's meant to be it will
Just got to watch it grow and mature
 
We've been together this long
Through it all we've made it work
It's soon to be our time

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By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
Are We

I live in your world
I go through your day
I breathe in your air
I need to get away
 
I embrace your time
I sleep in your bed
I live in your house
I got to leave now
 
I drive your cars
I eat your food
I drink your wine
I have to be blind
 
I think I got lost
I'm not sure I'm still me
I need to wake up
I should just walk out

I think I'll stay
Try to work it out
Knowing i'm just afraid
That we're the real deal

©Copyright
By: Tonya L. Chatelain
Aug., 2008
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